Aren't we supposed to....

like teachers? Today was most definitely the first day I wanted to kill one! Not just any teacher though - the swimming instructor. I took my daughter to her first swim lesson today and boy was it an experience. I thought, after being coaxed by my husband & Julie - the instructor- that it wasn't going to be so bad after all.  

YEAH RIGHT! I had to watch helplessly as my baby was crying & looking for me during the lesson. I was so mad I even punched my husband in his arm...yeah I know pretty rough huh? When it comes to my kid all self control flies right out the window. But I must admit, throughout all of my raving & frustration behind the scenes, Julie was just so loving & kind & patient with Leia - it was like nothing I had ever seen before. So much so, my daughter even began to calm down & follow her example. *Take note- they really only freak out when we freak out and believe it or not they always follow our example!*

After all of the tears were shed & we finally were able to come out from hiding to console her,she cried once she saw me & James and then she started to tell me about the frog- a toy character used in the swimming lesson- and was jumping up & down with excitement about being in the pool. I couldn't believe it, she really was okay & after it was said & done I was the only one who really had learned something. As painful as it is to watch them experience life, we have to let them do it. Otherwise they will sink when it comes time to swim - no pun intended HEE HEE...

She has more sessions to come over the weekend & during the early part of next week. I don't know how I will feel then but as for now there's a sense of peace that has come over me. The reality is my baby is growing up & I won't always be there for her. I will have to learn to leave her to her own devices & grow from her experiences- even the hurtful ones. The beautiful thing is, I can be there to kiss her face, wipe her tears and even her little hiney right now. What a blessing and yet what a challenge. 

Now I'm off to bury my head in a pillow & scream.... until tomorrows' lesson.... I can feel the headache coming on. LOL! Until then I'm going to put my feet up and indulge in a little mommy time - as my husband likes to call it. What did you think I would forget?......

- Take time for you too......